Blissful twist of fate.



The smallest things in life can be the most luxurious, most sought after and definitely most valuable. I can never stress enough how blessed i am to be given what i am given in the past few months. Though I had my fair share of despondency, heartaches and sorrows, I will always be thankful for the blessings that reaches me be it in a form of wealth or companion. 

Dad haven't been home for the longest period of time due to work and I have been stepping on to the plate since I hold the 3rd income. I have to admit i haven't done much besides splurging on my bedroom renovation (which is pretty minor) but i have given my mum extra allowance- which i have never done so my entire life. I hold the responsibility to pay the Zakat this year on behalf of my family. It is really different to go through Ramadhan without my dad but knowing he's gonna be home with double the amount he used to earn, I can only endure. <:

 Alhamdulilah to the Almighty for blessing me and my family.

 On a much bittersweet note, I am counting down to AJ's enlistment. 

-xoxoqueensiti


0 comments:

The grind speech: Motivations for the unmotivated





Rise and shine.
6am and your hand can't make it to the alarm clock before the voices in your head start telling you that it's too early, too dark, and too cold to get out of a bed. Aching muscles lie still in rebellion, pretending not to hear your brain commanding them to move. A legion of voices are shouting their unanimous permission for you to hit the snooze button and go back to dreamland, but you didn't ask their opinion. The voice you've chosen to listen to is one of defiance. A voice that's says there was a reason you set that alarm in the first place. So sit up, put your feet on the floor, and don't look back because we've got work to do. Welcome to The Grind!
For what is each day but a series of conflicts between the right way and the easy way, 10,000 streams fan out like a river delta before you, Each one promising the path of least resistance. Thing is, you're headed upstream
And when you make that choice, when you decide to turn your back on what's comfortable and what's safe and what some would call "common sense", well that's day 1. From there it only gets tougher.
So just make sure this is something you want. Because the easy way out will always be there, ready to wash you away, all you have to do is pick up your feet. But you aren't going to are you? With each step comes the decision to take another. You're on your way now. But this is no time to dwell on how far you've come.
You're in a fight against an opponent you can't see. Oh but you can feel him on your heels can't you? Feel him breathing down your neck You know what that is? That's you...
Your fears, your doubts and insecurities all lined up like a firing squad ready to shoot you out of the sky
but don't lose heart. While they aren't easily defeated, they are far from invincible
Remember this is The Grind 
The Battle Royale between you and your mind, your body and the devil on your shoulder who's telling you that this is just a game, this is just a waste of time, your opponents are stronger than you.
Drown out the voice of uncertainty with the sound of your own heartbeat
Burn away your self doubt with the fire that's beneath you
Remember what you're fighting for
And never forget that momentum is a cruel mistress
She can turn on a dime with the smallest mistake.
She is ever searching for that weak place in your armor
That one tiny thing you forgot to prepare for
So as long as the devil is hiding the details, the question remains,"is that all you got?", "are you sure?"
And when the answer is "yes". That you've done all you can to prepare yourself for battle THEN it's time to go forth and boldly face your enemy, the enemy within
Only now you must take that fight into the open, into hostile territory
You're a lion in a field of lions
All hunting the same elusive prey with a desperate starvation that says VICTORY is the only thing that can keep you alive. So believe that voice that says "you CAN run a little faster" and that "you CAN throw a little harder" and that "you CAN dive a little deeper" and that, for you, the laws of physics are merely a suggestion.
Luck is the last dying wish of those who wanna believe that winning can happen by accident, sweat on the other hand is for those who know it's a choice, so decide now because destiny waits for no man. And when your time comes and a thousand different voices are trying to tell you you're not ready for it, listen instead for that lone voice in decent the one that says you are ready, you are prepared, it's all up to you now, 

So rise and shine.

0 comments:

Hope is a four letter word.




The sun shines bright, effortlessly letting me know its time to wake up. My eyes always fight the light- because dream have always been better than reality. It's already 12 noon yet I find myself still in a daze, trying to search for that ounce of strength to get going through the day. How did it come to this? 

The worst feeling in the world is waking up knowing someone have already outstretched his arm for you to fall on yet you stood there, on the edge, analyze every atom of imperfections instead of letting yourself fall freely.

He treats me like a princess. He calls me beautiful every single night. He always find ways to deal with my attitude, always seeking a way to instill happiness in me. The only thing I can never do is falling for him. Falling for his charming looks, abs, muscles would be easy but I don't know why I can't do that.

 I wish one day, I could love him the way he loves me. 

-xoxoqueensiti

0 comments:

R.I.P Cory Monteith (Finn Hudson)





Nothing hurts more than waking up in the morning only to find the most adorable lad have already made his way to heaven. It was prolly around 11am when my sister told me about this devastating news. Being a gleek, each and every cast of the show feels like a family to me. I know how cliché this might sound but it was indeed a doleful morning, something no one  never thought could happen. Especially since he was only 31.




My heart goes out to Lea Micheal, We can only imagine the tears and sorrows she have to go through in this tragicomical event. How she will constantly be reminded of his charms and precious smile. I wish somehow or rather I could ease the pain because I feel her as a women. It is as though i know how fragile she is even when I only know her as Rachel Berry.


This is definitely an eye opener not only to me, but to the world. We often take for granted each and everyday. We create big problems upon slightest mistakes and never really appreciate what love is all about. For some, we still have that second chance but for them, it's the end. Lets all grieve...that's the only thing I can do. ): 




0 comments:

Subscribe to: Posts (Atom)